Mommy and daddy found out yesterday that you are going to be a big brother :) We are so excited! We want you to know that though mommy cannot play as much, and things will change you will always be special to us. You will always be mommy's lil bug butt :)
I dont know what else to say but that you are growing so fast. :) you walk everywhere and we have loved watching you grow :)
I love you sweet boy
Mommy
Jairmie :)
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Rocking you to sleep
Jairmie William it is three in the morning in the middle of september 2011. Your still teething infact your working on your second tooth. These last few nights you have been waking up between 2 and 3 in the morning and needing about a half hour to fourty-five minutes of our time. Last night daddy and me played with you, and you laughed and laughed, today was different. <3
I stood there singing to your bed time music, a cd I put together myself from calm loving songs about family, and God. About what love really is. One of the songs is one that your daddy and I had at our wedding. It is called when God made you.
As it was playing I was singing to you. Then you began to sing yourself....
I lave mana dada, I love mana dada, la la la la dada, la la la la nana, la la (deep sigh)
Then your rested your head on mommys shoulder and started drifting off to sleep. My love this is one of the most wonderful moments a mommy could ask for.
You are so very loved Jairmie. You have your daddies name, because he wanted you to know he loves you that much. I want you to know something. Mommy and daddy may fight. No one knows for sure what is coming in the future... but mommy knows that she loves daddy, and that daddy loves her. We are a family. A beautiful beautiful family. Together with God's help we will make it through everything.
Rest now my child. And mommy must do the same. Tomorrow will be another busy day. You will be sad because your teeth hurt. Mommy will be upset because she cant fix it. Daddy will be in class and will miss you soo. Together though, we are gonna make it through this time that is soo hard for all of us. Soon you will see growing up isnt so bad. I just pray you treasure it. It will go by quickly.
Mommy loves you so. Daddy loves you more than the world is round, Grandma French wants you to know she loves you, Grandma Lewis, Well she wants you to know that your her world little boy and that she loves you dearly too.
Sleep sweet my love
Mommy.
I stood there singing to your bed time music, a cd I put together myself from calm loving songs about family, and God. About what love really is. One of the songs is one that your daddy and I had at our wedding. It is called when God made you.
As it was playing I was singing to you. Then you began to sing yourself....
I lave mana dada, I love mana dada, la la la la dada, la la la la nana, la la (deep sigh)
Then your rested your head on mommys shoulder and started drifting off to sleep. My love this is one of the most wonderful moments a mommy could ask for.
You are so very loved Jairmie. You have your daddies name, because he wanted you to know he loves you that much. I want you to know something. Mommy and daddy may fight. No one knows for sure what is coming in the future... but mommy knows that she loves daddy, and that daddy loves her. We are a family. A beautiful beautiful family. Together with God's help we will make it through everything.
Rest now my child. And mommy must do the same. Tomorrow will be another busy day. You will be sad because your teeth hurt. Mommy will be upset because she cant fix it. Daddy will be in class and will miss you soo. Together though, we are gonna make it through this time that is soo hard for all of us. Soon you will see growing up isnt so bad. I just pray you treasure it. It will go by quickly.
Mommy loves you so. Daddy loves you more than the world is round, Grandma French wants you to know she loves you, Grandma Lewis, Well she wants you to know that your her world little boy and that she loves you dearly too.
Sleep sweet my love
Mommy.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Growing up so fast
My sweet beautiful son. It has been a couple months since I have been able to write one of these for you. You are growing so quickly. On the 14th of this month (september) you took your first steps. Yesterday, the 16th, I was able to see your first 2 teeth :) This morning (its 2am) you woke up crying. As I held you close to my heart and sang to you, you sang with me. Your favorite song is "Some say love" by bette midler. Its perfect actually, because there are so many things love can be, but for your daddy and I, its you. You are saying dada all the time. Today I think you tried to say Mama. It comes out NANA. You love kisses. There are times you will wake up crying and just scream until mommy looks at you and pull yourself up by my hair to kiss me. You are just growing so much. We love you soo :)
Daddy is putting you back to sleep right now. nbsp;
Your sick right now. A dual ear infection. But you will get better soon. Soon you will be one whole year old. Your daddy and I love you soo soo much. For now i must go. There are chores to be done, homework, and daddy has to work in the morning. Know you are loved my little one. And that you are strong.
Mommy <3
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Your Dedication
My dearest Jairmie William, tomorrow will not be a day you will remember, but you need to know it happened and you need to know why. Your being dedicated in the name of Jesus Christ, our lord and savior. For a basic reason mommy and daddy are Christians, but more importantly, we have our own personal reasons.
Jairmie your a miracle. I would argue more so than many other baby's but being your mommy, I am biased. Jairmie, mommy may have already told you this but they told me when I was 12 that I could never have babies. I guess in a since, daddy and I had accepted that, having already lost one due to a miscarriage, that was true. Thats why the day the nurse called mommy and told her she was pregnant, mommy was scared. But inside of mommy was a glimmer of hope, and one simple prayer: Please God, let our baby be ok.
They told me when I was 12 weeks pregnant with you, that I was having a miscarriage, but God had other plans. They told me I probably would not make it through birth because of some problems I have, and so God made you a Cesarian section. All of these barriers that they have put on you. On our family, on GOD you have made it through.
Yeah, Jairmie you have some problems, but your very presence on this earth is because of God. Sometimes I see myself as hannah did in the bible. Unable to have a child, she prayed to God and offered to give her son to him. I wanted you so bad little man. I just was too scared to loose you to know how very much.
So tomorrow, Sunday, July 24, 2011, you will be dedicated at the Assemblies of God Church in Junction City, KS, by Pastor BJ Solander, and his wife Tobi. The entirety of the french family will be there. Uncle Phil will be there, and even though aunt Kaity cannot be, I can promise you she wants to be. The same is true of all of mommy's family.
Tomorrow we give you back to God. With a promise to raise you right, knowing what love is, who God is, that it is not your place to judge others, and that above all, even family, comes God. We give you to God because we know, as much as we love you, God loves you more, because he can love more than is humanly possible.
Jairmie William, I am so proud of you. You have overcome unfair odds against you and your not even 9 months old. Remember this my son. You may be sick, you may have seizures, you may grow older and have as many problems as mommy, on none like your daddy, but in the end, nothing is too much for God to handle.
I love you so,
Mommy <3
Jairmie your a miracle. I would argue more so than many other baby's but being your mommy, I am biased. Jairmie, mommy may have already told you this but they told me when I was 12 that I could never have babies. I guess in a since, daddy and I had accepted that, having already lost one due to a miscarriage, that was true. Thats why the day the nurse called mommy and told her she was pregnant, mommy was scared. But inside of mommy was a glimmer of hope, and one simple prayer: Please God, let our baby be ok.
They told me when I was 12 weeks pregnant with you, that I was having a miscarriage, but God had other plans. They told me I probably would not make it through birth because of some problems I have, and so God made you a Cesarian section. All of these barriers that they have put on you. On our family, on GOD you have made it through.
Yeah, Jairmie you have some problems, but your very presence on this earth is because of God. Sometimes I see myself as hannah did in the bible. Unable to have a child, she prayed to God and offered to give her son to him. I wanted you so bad little man. I just was too scared to loose you to know how very much.
So tomorrow, Sunday, July 24, 2011, you will be dedicated at the Assemblies of God Church in Junction City, KS, by Pastor BJ Solander, and his wife Tobi. The entirety of the french family will be there. Uncle Phil will be there, and even though aunt Kaity cannot be, I can promise you she wants to be. The same is true of all of mommy's family.
Tomorrow we give you back to God. With a promise to raise you right, knowing what love is, who God is, that it is not your place to judge others, and that above all, even family, comes God. We give you to God because we know, as much as we love you, God loves you more, because he can love more than is humanly possible.
Jairmie William, I am so proud of you. You have overcome unfair odds against you and your not even 9 months old. Remember this my son. You may be sick, you may have seizures, you may grow older and have as many problems as mommy, on none like your daddy, but in the end, nothing is too much for God to handle.
I love you so,
Mommy <3
Monday, July 18, 2011
Sweet baby boy
The last few weeks have been hard for mommy. I have been taking what is called a CNA class. It is so mommy can get a job and take better care of you, like get you all the things you need to help you learn to be very very smart. Baby mommy loves you so much. Its hard not being able to spend the day with you during the week. All this weekend you have done nothing but cry it seems. I try so hard to make you happy but i just dont know what to do. Your sick right now, and teething so thats never a good combination <3 Jairmie you are loved... more than words can say. The hardest part of this class is knowing that, by the time all of my all day classes are over you will be 9 months old... and i will have missed most of an entire mont of your life.
Your mommies inspiration. Your growing up so fast. I mean you 8 months old and already you fit into your big boy 1year plus sponge bob and cars pajamas. You are trying new things, like ice cream bars and cheese, even pizza. You are almost able to crawl and your doing soo good. Mommy is working very hard when your asleep to prepare the house for the day that you are ready to crawl all over this house.
Mommy was hurt very much by a friend this last week, and your the only thing that has helped mommy keep it all together. Mommy comes home from class exhausted and weak, but most of all sad she cannot see you, but then she has to remind herself that all of this... is being done for you.
Mommy talks about you in class. Did you know that? All the time. People dont know how much you mean to me. How very much I love you.
Little man I want you remember something as you grow up ok? Its something that just occurred to mommy today.
When we are kids, everything is miraculous and magical. As we grow, that doesn't change. We change. Until we can no longer see the beauty or feel the magic in the world. Until our hearts, become too preoccupied with what must be done, to realize what has been done for us. I see it all again. In my babies eyes
Never loose sight of the magic and the beauty in this world, or the one who gave it to you, God. Sometimes you will feel weak, or that the world is overwhelming. But your strong. Already mommy can tell you that. Your 8 months old, and have lived through seizures, infections and other things. You are weak in some ways right now, like mommy is. Mommy gets sick very easy.... but i promise you baby when you grow you will be strong.
No matter where you go... or what you become, your loved.... so very very loved.
Mom spent the day today playing with you and trying to get your bedroom rearranged so it will be nice for you to spend your time in. Your growing up so fast. Its hard to believe your almost a year old. <3 Remember who you are Jairmie, as you grow older. Remember where you came from. Remember your part of a family of fighters, who can make it through some of the worst things, and come out on top strong, faithful, and fearless to the end. A family who loves you fiercely, each and every one of us, though we all show it in different ways.
Your resting in your room tonight. I find myself wanting to go hold you. To tell you mommy loves you but you must rest, you're sick and you need your sleep.
Be strong my love, but above all else, as you grow, be yourself
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Little man...
You had a very ruff night last night, and it broke my heat that there was nothing I could do for you. But I promise you this my little Jairmie. Mommy will do her very best to be there every time you need me. I love you so very much Jairmie. Mommy would give up her dreams just to know you afe ok. Jairmie William, you are my world. Today is fathers day. Your daddy loves you so very very much. :D he got lots of presents this year. 6 in total :) I am sure you will love making him daddies day presents one day :)
You have stolen the hearts of all of mommys friend. Here is a little about them.
Aunt Kaity:
Auntie Kaity is your God-mother. She is alot like mommy, she just handles things a little differently. She loves you to death. She coined your name, Senior Stink Squish :P It is fun because your always stinky because we love you even though you do smell bad because you are rays of sunshine in every sad and dreary day. Your smile is so big and gummy :D its the cutest thing ever!!
Uncle Phil:
Uncle Phil is your God-father. He is a good man who relizes that people are more important than things and truely cares about others. I truely truely want you to learn this. You matter, Jairmie William, but you should never think that you are better, or worth more than others. Everyone matters Jairmie.
Auntie Tiff:
Auntie Tiff right now is a free spirit, but when you get older, you will remember her as what she is at her core, a good friend, auntie, and a beautiful woman. She loves you to death and thinks the world of you.
Auntie Amber:
Auntie Amber is pregnant as we speak. Unfortunately you will not be able to be around auntie amber as much as mommy would like you to but when she sees you again she is absolutely loves you. I cant wait until you get to see her again!!!
Jairmie William French:
Your so loved...
Never forget that.
Go in the way of your dreams
Mommy <3
You have stolen the hearts of all of mommys friend. Here is a little about them.
Aunt Kaity:
Auntie Kaity is your God-mother. She is alot like mommy, she just handles things a little differently. She loves you to death. She coined your name, Senior Stink Squish :P It is fun because your always stinky because we love you even though you do smell bad because you are rays of sunshine in every sad and dreary day. Your smile is so big and gummy :D its the cutest thing ever!!
Uncle Phil:
Uncle Phil is your God-father. He is a good man who relizes that people are more important than things and truely cares about others. I truely truely want you to learn this. You matter, Jairmie William, but you should never think that you are better, or worth more than others. Everyone matters Jairmie.
Auntie Tiff:
Auntie Tiff right now is a free spirit, but when you get older, you will remember her as what she is at her core, a good friend, auntie, and a beautiful woman. She loves you to death and thinks the world of you.
Auntie Amber:
Auntie Amber is pregnant as we speak. Unfortunately you will not be able to be around auntie amber as much as mommy would like you to but when she sees you again she is absolutely loves you. I cant wait until you get to see her again!!!
Jairmie William French:
Your so loved...
Never forget that.
Go in the way of your dreams
Mommy <3
Friday, June 10, 2011
My dearest Jairmie William
If there were ever things I could never say to you, there are a few things I want you to know
* Mommy Loves you more than words could ever say. And a barrel and a heap.
* Your mommies miracle. Did you know that they told mommy since she was 12 she would never have kids? But she did. She had you.
* Your mommy believes in only 2 great powers, both part of the same. The power of God, and the power of love. Through those two things, you can achieve anything.
* Mommy loves daddy alot, even when we fight.
* You are the most beautiful little boy I have ever seen. Your beautiful blues eyes, your big smile that lights up the room. Your so full of personality and joy that you touch people who dont even know you.
* Mommy never wanted you to get all the sicknesses from her side of the family. But even if you have everything physically wrong with you that mommy does, you will not be alone, and mommy will not let anyone hurt you.
* Daddy loves you alot. Sometimes he does not know how to show love, but he truly truly does.
Can mommy tell you a secret, when the wind blows, if you listen very closely, angels will tell you how much mommy, as well as so very many other people love you.
I chose your Godmother and Godfather very carefully. Though they are not perfect aunt Kaity and uncle Phil love you dearly. Aunt Kaity can be frail sometimes, scared even, but because of that, she knows what loss feels like and how to hold on to the people she loves. And uncle Phil, he is a good man, and he can teach you how to be you, while someone is cleaving to you, sometimes almost smothering you, but never letting them down. They are both fierce friends and they both would rather gouge out their eyes than to watch anyting bad happen to you.
Auntie Tiffany loves you dearly, Auntie Jes as well, they would do anything just to see you smile. Just to make you happy and to let you know that you are so very loved.
Jairmie William you are blessed and loved with a wonderful family, a diverse wonderful family.
*Grandparents: Sherry Lewis, Crystal French, Kip French, Timothy Northrup
* Uncles and Aunts: Timothy Northrup Jr, William Northrup, Cymber Bunn, and if you ever get to meet them, Laura Lynn Northrup, Marcia Northrup, and Amanda Northrup, as well as Auntie Ilene, Auntie Trina, Uncle Lukey, Uncle Matthew.
Each of your family members is crazy in their own way, but loveable in their own way too. You will learn to love and accept each one of them as your crazy, sometimes annoying family
Never forget you are loved my love, NEVER
Mommy <3
* Mommy Loves you more than words could ever say. And a barrel and a heap.
* Your mommies miracle. Did you know that they told mommy since she was 12 she would never have kids? But she did. She had you.
* Your mommy believes in only 2 great powers, both part of the same. The power of God, and the power of love. Through those two things, you can achieve anything.
* Mommy loves daddy alot, even when we fight.
* You are the most beautiful little boy I have ever seen. Your beautiful blues eyes, your big smile that lights up the room. Your so full of personality and joy that you touch people who dont even know you.
* Mommy never wanted you to get all the sicknesses from her side of the family. But even if you have everything physically wrong with you that mommy does, you will not be alone, and mommy will not let anyone hurt you.
* Daddy loves you alot. Sometimes he does not know how to show love, but he truly truly does.
Can mommy tell you a secret, when the wind blows, if you listen very closely, angels will tell you how much mommy, as well as so very many other people love you.
I chose your Godmother and Godfather very carefully. Though they are not perfect aunt Kaity and uncle Phil love you dearly. Aunt Kaity can be frail sometimes, scared even, but because of that, she knows what loss feels like and how to hold on to the people she loves. And uncle Phil, he is a good man, and he can teach you how to be you, while someone is cleaving to you, sometimes almost smothering you, but never letting them down. They are both fierce friends and they both would rather gouge out their eyes than to watch anyting bad happen to you.
Auntie Tiffany loves you dearly, Auntie Jes as well, they would do anything just to see you smile. Just to make you happy and to let you know that you are so very loved.
Jairmie William you are blessed and loved with a wonderful family, a diverse wonderful family.
*Grandparents: Sherry Lewis, Crystal French, Kip French, Timothy Northrup
* Uncles and Aunts: Timothy Northrup Jr, William Northrup, Cymber Bunn, and if you ever get to meet them, Laura Lynn Northrup, Marcia Northrup, and Amanda Northrup, as well as Auntie Ilene, Auntie Trina, Uncle Lukey, Uncle Matthew.
Each of your family members is crazy in their own way, but loveable in their own way too. You will learn to love and accept each one of them as your crazy, sometimes annoying family
Never forget you are loved my love, NEVER
Mommy <3
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